It has definitely been a while since I posted....I guess priorities change often when you have little kids. My toddler is doing very good with potty training. He is actually controlling it most of the time. Now we just have to get him over the fear of the "big potties" out in public places. It will happen eventually I guess. My oldest two boys are still under strict grounding. They hate it but are not willing to change & make the improvements they need to when it comes to school work. It is wearing me out, literally!!! I have to check over every tiny little thing they do & I found out last week about some lying that has been going on for a month!!! Talk about being dissapointed.....I mean, we all know that kids are going to try & lie when they are afraid of consequences, but lying just for the heck of it is way overboard! Oh well, I'm not going to dwell on that too much, they are just going to stay grounded until improvements are very apparent. God never said being a parent was fun & I tell my boys all the time..."God made me your mother, not your friend."
As for me you might ask.... well I'm tired but okay. My best friends have been sick so much lately that I've felt kind of lonely & helpless. I wish I could help them but I couldn't put myself at risk of getting sick also. I'm always more weary of sickness when I'm pregnant. The last time I caught a simple cold while pregnant, it took me 2-3 weeks to finally heal. I wanted to go over to their houses & take care of them, but couldn't. I hate it when I think someone needs me & there is nothing I can do. Then, my husband & 2 of my kids got sick....I took care of them....now I feel under the weather. Please God, do not let me get sick!!! I think I am going to go to bed & rest for awhile. Well, at least while my toddler is taking his nap, hehe! Life is so fun sometimes...
On a side note, is being a wife & mother enough? I made the comment to my husband that I think being a mother is a very high calling from God, but I also want to know that there is something more to me as a person. He told me that if I truely believed that it was a high calling then I would not need to look for anything else. Basically, if I believed that then I should be happy with just that. I don't think so, I do believe it, just don't want to settle for too little. Can't I be more without feeling guilty for wanting more?
Friday, February 24, 2012
Monday, February 13, 2012
Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow...
Wow, what a weekend. It has been so cold that I wish I could tie blankets around me & still be able to walk around. I was hoping to spend a lot of time lying around reading because I never get to do that, but other things kept coming up. I did start a new book that I am really enjoying so far, "Why I Stayed" by Gayle Haggard. My best friend told me about it & it is a good story. This woman has a lot more courage than I think I would have had in her situation. I can't imagine having my world turned upside down like that & still try to follow God's principles. I know that I would strive to, but I would have a harder time with my emotions -especially anger! Anyways - it is a good read & I recommend it to every woman of God.
Well we started potty training my 2-year old. That is mainly why I couldn't lay around all weekend. He only has ten pair of underwear & I had to keep the laundry rotating for "fresh briches"....hehe. On top of that, my husband had to go to Walmart to buy a quick wet mop so we could mop up after every accident. Hard wood floors are easier to clean up spills than on carpet, but I was not willing to get the mop bucket out every 15 minutes. I also have to make sure to get the smell out so our precious dogs would not try to out do our 2-year old, if you know what I mean. One of the dogs is 100 pounds & can probably fill a bath tub!!!
We found out last week about the sex of our new baby. It is definiely a boy.....he was so proud of his stuff already that the nurse was able to get 3 or 4 pictures of his "junk". So I guess I will remain the only girl/woman in my house. My husband knew how disappointed I was & later that night let me know that he is willing to try again later if I want. I thought - "Are you crazy!" What if I end up with 5 boys! No Way Jose! 4 is enough to last me a lifetime & I believe it will.... Well, yes, I was very upset & had to allow my emotions some time to spill (& spill they did). I cried like a heart-broken toddler for many hours....but now I'm better. The way I look at it now is that our world needs good men for the next generations to come & apparently, God trusts me to raise such men. It is a high calling that some can't handle, but I will do my best to try.
Well I must run now....to the bathroom every 15 min, if not for my training toddler but for my pregnant self....try to post again soon...
Well we started potty training my 2-year old. That is mainly why I couldn't lay around all weekend. He only has ten pair of underwear & I had to keep the laundry rotating for "fresh briches"....hehe. On top of that, my husband had to go to Walmart to buy a quick wet mop so we could mop up after every accident. Hard wood floors are easier to clean up spills than on carpet, but I was not willing to get the mop bucket out every 15 minutes. I also have to make sure to get the smell out so our precious dogs would not try to out do our 2-year old, if you know what I mean. One of the dogs is 100 pounds & can probably fill a bath tub!!!
We found out last week about the sex of our new baby. It is definiely a boy.....he was so proud of his stuff already that the nurse was able to get 3 or 4 pictures of his "junk". So I guess I will remain the only girl/woman in my house. My husband knew how disappointed I was & later that night let me know that he is willing to try again later if I want. I thought - "Are you crazy!" What if I end up with 5 boys! No Way Jose! 4 is enough to last me a lifetime & I believe it will.... Well, yes, I was very upset & had to allow my emotions some time to spill (& spill they did). I cried like a heart-broken toddler for many hours....but now I'm better. The way I look at it now is that our world needs good men for the next generations to come & apparently, God trusts me to raise such men. It is a high calling that some can't handle, but I will do my best to try.
Well I must run now....to the bathroom every 15 min, if not for my training toddler but for my pregnant self....try to post again soon...
Monday, February 6, 2012
It is a hectic life!
Well it has been way too long since I posted last. Things have been so hectic & my pregnant body is giving me fits. I told my husband last night that I think the baby hates me sometimes....I hurt so bad! Oh well, it will be worth it in the end when I see that precious face & toes & fingers...so cute! I have my appointment for the sonogram on Wednesday. (Please God let it be a girl! Please, please, please!)
I've been reading this book about raising boys, hoping it would give me some encouragement or insight or something to hang onto, & so far nothing. I have learned that when boys are still in the womb a rage of hormones actually damages a part of the brain that takes them years to learn to overcome it. Which part...you might ask? Well, get this...it is sooooo obviously true....it is the part that allows you to think before you act! Boys literally have to learn how to think before making decisions & girls already have the know how. Wow, that explains so much!!!
Anyways, I'm about to throw the book down because it really wasn't what I was looking for. I was trying to encourage myself to keep pushing through. If you don't know already, I also homeschool my two oldest boys & here lately, they have not been doing well. I spend hours on the weekend grading papers & doing lesson plans for the next week & I end up mad everytime. Their grades are dropping fast, they don't seem to care, & they won't try harder. So now it is to the point where "Dad" has told them everything they have is gone until they improve. (Great, now I get to deal with their bad attitudes over not being able to do anything.) They are actually quite disturbed with me right today. I decided that their work is going to improve come "hell or high water"; so, I am grading as we go & making them redo things over & over until it is quality work. I am not letting get away with their normal & they are mad!!! The only down side is that I have been trying so hard this past year to NOT have to stand over them so intensly. I want them to learn to work on their own, & now I'm standing over them again. It feels like I'm moving backwards!!! But I guess it is worth it to make sure my young men have strong work ethics. Pray for me if you are reading this!!!!
I've been reading this book about raising boys, hoping it would give me some encouragement or insight or something to hang onto, & so far nothing. I have learned that when boys are still in the womb a rage of hormones actually damages a part of the brain that takes them years to learn to overcome it. Which part...you might ask? Well, get this...it is sooooo obviously true....it is the part that allows you to think before you act! Boys literally have to learn how to think before making decisions & girls already have the know how. Wow, that explains so much!!!
Anyways, I'm about to throw the book down because it really wasn't what I was looking for. I was trying to encourage myself to keep pushing through. If you don't know already, I also homeschool my two oldest boys & here lately, they have not been doing well. I spend hours on the weekend grading papers & doing lesson plans for the next week & I end up mad everytime. Their grades are dropping fast, they don't seem to care, & they won't try harder. So now it is to the point where "Dad" has told them everything they have is gone until they improve. (Great, now I get to deal with their bad attitudes over not being able to do anything.) They are actually quite disturbed with me right today. I decided that their work is going to improve come "hell or high water"; so, I am grading as we go & making them redo things over & over until it is quality work. I am not letting get away with their normal & they are mad!!! The only down side is that I have been trying so hard this past year to NOT have to stand over them so intensly. I want them to learn to work on their own, & now I'm standing over them again. It feels like I'm moving backwards!!! But I guess it is worth it to make sure my young men have strong work ethics. Pray for me if you are reading this!!!!
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