Sick...

     I'm back, but not full steam yet.  I came down with the flu last week & all my children got sick also.  One had bronchitis, another had an ear infection, & the last one had congestion that was fixing to turn to something worse.  Needless to say, we have all been on antibiotics & trying to recover.  My toddler & I still have that lingering cough & I can tell he doesn't feel too good yet.  On a good note though, I quit smoking....didn't want to, but had no choice.  I can't breathe & still have to use an inhaler.
     So to recap....we are all in the process of getting better except MY process is the slowest & I'm going through withdrawals!!!!  Lord help me! (...to not kill my kids...hehe).  Well, at least I'm saving some money!!!

Once a week

     Well I guess once a week is about all I will be able to accomplish on this blog.  I guess it is better than nothing....it'll have to be.  We are on spring break this week & I thank God because of all the crazy stuff going on.  The time change has got me all screwed up & sleeping too late.  Then my neighbor needed my help (watching her 4 granchildren) while she took care of some important issues today.  Which I totally don't mind helping her out, she is always doing the same for me.  I have to take my oldest son back to the leg doctor on Thursday.  He isn't improving like we had hoped, so I decided to take care of it myself.  I'm gonna let the dr. know that something has to be done because my son is just not old enough or mature enough to help himself.  (And quite frankly I'm tired of the battle I face everytime I ask him to do anything!!!!)  Then, on top of all this on my mind, I get a call from my dr. yesterday & I have go in on Friday for another diabetes test ---- I failed the last one.  I am totally bummed about it!  I am trying hard not to have a bad attitude or feel sorry for myself but it is really hard.
     On a good note, my husband is trying to make me feel better.  He called today to check on me & of course, I am bummed out.  He told me that this is not my fault & that I didn't bring it upon myself.  That it was nothing I did or could've done, it is just that I'm over 30...... that sort of made me feel better....I'm so glad he noticed that I'm getting older....hehe!!!!  I swear the next time I look into the mirror, all I'm gonna see is this fat, old lady, & bonus! - I'm a PREGNANT, fat, old lady!!! AHAHAHAHA!!!!!
     I wish I could just go fishing with my best-friend.....sitting, relaxing, talking (& hopefully no kids).  I always feel better when I get to go fishing with her......hopefully soon.....

Today is a new day!

"...for God selected (deliberately chose) what in the world is foolish to put the wise to shame, and what the world calls weak to put the strong to shame." 1 Corinthians 1:27

I am going to rejoice in my downfalls, slips, mistakes, & all my foolishness.  Without all of these so called horrible things then I wouldn't have any room for God in my life.  I want to rely on God more than I ever have before.  I want to wake up each morning and ask Him what He wants me to do today.  I am tired of trying to do it myself!!!  What gives me the right to even think that I can do it myself?  Wow, where did I go so wrong & become so prideful that I thought I could?  I am foolish, I am weak, but I AM God's child.  Help me, Lord!