Life as we know it....

     It has definitely been a while since I posted....I guess priorities change often when you have little kids.  My toddler is doing very good with potty training.  He is actually controlling it most of the time.  Now we just have to get him over the fear of the "big potties" out in public places.  It will happen eventually I guess.  My oldest two boys are still under strict grounding.  They hate it but are not willing to change & make the improvements they need to when it comes to school work.  It is wearing me out, literally!!!  I have to check over every tiny little thing they do & I found out last week about some lying that has been going on for a month!!!  Talk about being dissapointed.....I mean, we all know that kids are going to try & lie when they are afraid of consequences, but lying just for the heck of it is way overboard!  Oh well, I'm not going to dwell on that too much, they are just going to stay grounded until improvements are very apparent.  God never said being a parent was fun & I tell my boys all the time..."God made me your mother, not your friend."
     As for me you might ask.... well I'm tired but okay.  My best friends have been sick so much lately that I've felt kind of lonely & helpless.  I wish I could help them but I couldn't put myself at risk of getting sick also.  I'm always more weary of sickness when I'm pregnant.  The last time I caught a simple cold while pregnant, it took me 2-3 weeks to finally heal.  I wanted to go over to their houses & take care of them, but couldn't.  I hate it when I think someone needs me & there is nothing I can do.  Then, my husband & 2 of my kids got sick....I took care of them....now I feel under the weather.  Please God, do not let me get sick!!!  I think I am going to go to bed & rest for awhile.  Well, at least while my toddler is taking his nap, hehe!  Life is so fun sometimes...
    On a side note, is being a wife & mother enough?  I made the comment to my husband that I think being a mother is a very high calling from God, but I also want to know that there is something more to me as a person.  He told me that if I truely believed that it was a high calling then I would not need to look for anything else.  Basically, if I believed that then I should be happy with just that.  I don't think so,  I do believe it, just don't want to settle for too little.  Can't I be more without feeling guilty for wanting more?